Friday, 25 July 2008

26lbs lighter



Yikes, the camera needs replacing. I'm now 26lbs lighter and beginning to feel a slight difference in my clothes. The nurse thinks my BP and pulse has gone up due to the Reductil but I think she just couldn't work the machine properly. She did lots of muttering about how she would have to check with the Dr and call me back that very afternoon, and I haven't heard from her since.

I have had a really upset stomach all week, so i don't know if that is a bug, the reductil, the heat or a combination of all these things. I'm not hungry at all, and even when I get some food I just pick at it. I do have a really dry mouth which is definitely a Reductil side effect so I'm having lots of water and mints as I am paranoid I have bad breath. Attractive eh?

We've bought a Wii console and a Wii fit, supposedy to get me fit but DH seems to be playing an awful lot of golf on it. I'm going to find out how to do it this weekend and then try and get a bit of a routine going .

I have my cousins coming for a visit on sunday, along with my sisters, which should be great fun. We got fed up with only seeing each other at funerals, and I am trying to make more of an effort at arranging social things, so we made this date. I am so anxious that people won't like me, or will be disgusted at how fat I am whenever I arrange something that I often back out due to nerves. Its stupid, because if I do make the effort I usually have a good time, and people presumably wouldn't bother accepting my invite, or inviting me, if they didn't like me a bit?

I've been sucked into too many forums of late. Facebook has just reunited me with an old friend, and I've been chatting to his fiance too, who seems really nice. There is also a new forum for the estate where I live, and we've already been to a Mum and baby get together which was good.

My resolution for the next month is to really start exercising - and to buy a new camera!

Friday, 11 July 2008

Whoops, where did I go?

Ahem, sorry about that, I seem to have inadvertently abandoned this blog for two months...where on earth did the time go?

Busy days...my girls both had a birthday, Grace is now three and Eva is one. We went on holiday to France, and have been seeing ILs as they are now back living in the UK.

I have started seeing a Hypnotherapist for my weight and for anxiety problems. Whenever I have seen anyone in the past they are only able to deal with one thing, so I saw someone for PTSD, someone else for grief, someone else for weight loss, and the thing is, these things can't be separated out. I am a sum of all of those things, so it is impossible to talk about why I overeat without touching on any of the other complicated little scenarios my mind throws up. The woman I am seeing has been realy good, and although I have only had three sessions I feel alot more in control of my eating.

I've got either a tummy bug or food poisoning right at this minute, which has been horrid for two days but seems to be improving. I've had some crackers earlier, and am just about to eat some potato wedges...hope I am better!

So far I have ditched 22lbs of fat, so I'm quite pleased with that. I finally started on Reductil last saturday, so that should help. I'm due to see my PCOS consultant on 1st October and I would like to have got to 3 stone off by then, which means I have 20lbs to go in around 11 weeks, which seems reasonable.